WAT babes!

our most recent meet up. at e top floor of TM. had a chit chat session abt life over bubble tea.

i tink tis i our v first meet up since we came back spore? cant rem. at pasta de waraku.

our failed exploration plan which landed us at ikea.

when i see these pple im always reminded of my stay in US. though it was short, it was full of fun/laughter/tears/sweat. i loved all e moments where we walked miles in e cold juz to scrimp on cab fare or kop sauces n pepper fr macs or fold clothes for money or eating ice cream n snacking on chips in e late nites. i wana go back!! 2 years! now need to save up!

that's why god gave us fingernails

thats wat ah koh said to me when he saw me cutting veg just now.
boo!! i admit my cooking sux. i cant cook half as well as him
somehow im juz not tat into cooking.
i LOVE homecook meals though
somehow they juz taste so much better no matter how simple e dishes are.
i juz lk e feeling of eating at home. i lovelovelove soups esp!

past wk at work has been gd :)
i guess my mentality is v impt.
i shall try to keep tis up!

a fren's recent breakup reminded me of one of my own.
all i can say is that it is always hard initially,
but time really washes everyting away.
so px, u must be firm.
dont let tings tat happen cloud ur head, just walk away.

rt now im juz watchin time creep by n my heart is sinking my e seconds.
goin back to work tml. n i gotta wake up earlier den usual coz im on course tml.
cannot b late. so i cant tk e express bus i take every morn.
coz it only operates fr 8am n i'll b late by e time i reach.
so gotta tk a normal bus which tks much longer so i gotta leave home much earler.
bugger!

im tryin to change my attitude towards work.
mayb juz not hard enuff. still tryin to figure e root of e prob.
if it is really wat i self-diagnose (i just dun lk working)
i duno wat to do man.

i mean even though i complain n everyting, life still goes on.
im fine pple. hahas. dun worry.
it's juz that sometimes i let all these silly tings get to me.
n i'll post all these negative blogs.

dear's dad is goin to retire in abt 2wks time.
retirement.. someting im nowhere near.
hahas. but i wonder how it feels?
although im such a nua-sai but i tink i will oso feel v lost.
hopefully uncle will have enuff activities to keep him occupied.
dear's mum is a lil worried abt dearie not being able to find a job.
im keepin my fingers crossed that someting gd will land on his plate.

sometimes i feel bad that i spend so much time w dear's fam.
that i sometimes dun even noe wat's happenin in my own hse.
but somehow when i come home i juz feel lk holing up in my own rm.
unless it's meal times, otherwise i rather not socialize.

oh. btw. congrats G5 on e successful performance :)
we're all looking forward to e yacht outing!! *hint hint*

land of smiles

been back from bangkok for awhile now. was a really good trip. e company, e food, everyting. e fact that we all know bkk pretty well (esp chriz), made e trip even more enjoyable. coz we know where to shop, chill, eat, where to get e best buys etc. we spent almost every cent we brought there (we actually set aside some for e airport tax but in e end it was inclusive in e air tix, so we bought more stuff fr e dfs :)

us where all e tourists in bkk go - MBK! didnt tink it was a gd place to shop my previous time there. but tis time round, dear's sis recommended us tis shops that sells t-shirts. e designs r really nice n they're cheap! in e end we bought lk 20 over shirts fr that 1 shop. it's called 'pre-loved' fr e first flr. can check it out if anyone's goin.

us at snoop, one of e chill places at rachada soi 4. didnt rem it to b so smoky. makes e pic a lil spooky. hahas. thats chriz n his gf, sze wing(sw). his 3rd gf he brought to thailand in 3 yrs. hahas. opps. lk not v nice of me to announce here. but he n sw r pretty funny tog. famous quotes fr her: 'r we going to be taking elephant rides in thailand? how abt e chao praya river?' hahas. i mean to me thailand is abt shopping/food/massage. no elephants or rivers come to my mind.

anw i really love thailand coz everyting is so f***ing cheap there. we drink beer lk water lor. (somehow i feel e beer there aint as strong as in spore? coz no matter how much we drink we nv get drunk) had lotsa fun playing stupid games in e hotel rm at nite too. tis time round we stayed at a further hotel so 4 of us cabbed everywhere. which was really great (less e times we were caught in e jam) coz i dun feel tired fr walking to e shopping places lk my last trip there. we also manage to find tis thai massage place (of coz clean one) which was really fabulous. they had couple rooms n it was good n cheap! my fav place for shopping is still platinum mall. there was tis shop that i spent lk almost 45min in. loved all their dresses there.

e conclusion for tis trip: 'i'll b back!'

rainy days

somehow rainy days just make me feel sad.
sad that im not able to lie in bed n enjoy e best weather to nua.
oh well. better not dwell on tings i cant do.
actually wat i hate most is that my shoe gets wet.
so irritating. i hate e feeling.

dear's coming down w flu. n my cough have been w me since i came back fr thailand.
dun rem e last time i had cough for so long.
sometimes i cough so hard i feel lk some organ in my body is goin to burst.
e gd ting is it's giving my stomach muscle some exercise. hahas.
if coughing can make me have abs, i dun mind coughing e rest of my life man.

been watching hell's kitchen. v interesting e way chefs work in e kitchen.
e chef ramsey (e host) curse fr start to e end of e show lor.
just hurling vulgarities at e contestants all e time.
but e prize is fabulous lar.
a mthly salary of a quarter million (chefs earn THAT much???)
n become head chef in somewhere fancy in las vegas.
plus a share of e restuarant's profits. really cool.
just finished another episode of celebrity apprentice too.
n one of e contestants, piers (real entertainer e way he toks) called chef ramsey to buy some art fr him (tis wk's challenge). hee.
hooked on watchin reality tv now since not much nice series r on.
i hope gossip girls n desperate hsewife comes back soon.

n.u.m.b

these days nothing seems to be able to get my spirits up.
having e numb feeling again. boo.
someone try slapping me. poking me w a needle. or stab me (kidding lar)
dearie is e strongest support in my life.
dont tink i can do w/o him. at e moment. hahas.

dad is still out of job. though it's not a bad ting,
i mean we're surviving ok. as long as he's happy im happy.
juz dun wan him to b bored at home n let his tots go wild.
i mean i'll love to b in his position. i tink. hahha.
grass always greener on e other side.

these days ive been havin a huge prob getting out of bed.
somehow my body juz doesnt listen to e commands fr my brain.
or rather, i juz dun wan to get up.
lk im totally awake but i juz wan to lie on e bed. under my warm comforters.
most days i'll snooze my hp 3 times (tat's lk 15min)
den in abt 10 min my dear will call me
(he would still b awake fr playing game or mj at e time im goin to wake up to work. lk WTH)
den we'll tok for lk 5min while i still laze on e bed. eyes closed.
den i'll nua another lk 10min or so. till it's time when i dun get up im not goin to make it to work.
only den i'll drag my lazy ass out.
thats working life for me.

is it possible to love your job?

i really wonder.
it's someting i really wan to do
but i duno wat's stopping me. i noe im one e worse performing pple in my dept.
no doubt abt that. always leaving on e dot.
careless mistakes here n there n everywhere.
i dun tink it has anyting to do w my capability (at least i refuse to believe that)
rather, i juz cant put my heart in e work i do.

i really long for a fulfilling n enriching career.
one that can make me learn new tings, gather new perspective, meet new pple.
basically feel gd abt myself n wat im doing.
is that difficult?

i always wonder, does e prob lie w e job? or w me.
somehow i believe it's e latter
i still cant adapt to tis working life ting
deep down in my heart i still imagine myself to b a carefree student.
howhowhow? hopefully when e bf starts work i'll b able to anchor myself.
i can only hope.