to nursings:
sorry i cant blog on e nursings blog.. anw.. tis fri im supposed to org rt.. but i'll b away in JB lehs.. n since some of them haven finished exams rt.. tink juz postpone to nxt fri? been damn long since we met up.. miss all of u :)

i cried.. so many times.. so much that im becoming such a crybaby! when im juz days to my big 2-0.. i hate e feeling that i wan sumting so much.. but it's totally beyond my control whether i get it or not.. my fate lies in e hands of others..

accordin to aaron.. e ch8 dance show oso had probs wif e team members.. but eventually tings work out n they enter sum prestigious comp n i guess they win lar.. happy ending.. wat abt us? haiis.. dare not tink.. n there's lk a performance on 16dec.. duno hu n wat we're dancing yet.. another prob! haiis :( depressed..

even with all e happy occassions comin up.. i juz cant seem to lift my spirits.. but im realli v grateful to deardear.. if not 4 him.. tink i would haf juz collapsed.. thanx 4 always being there 4 me dear! i love u!

been feelin damn low these days.. all coz of funka.. now that we got e instructor.. e funds.. e most impt ting is lacking.. people!! haiis.. mel.. den hock.. n now hweechin!! first mel say he cant join coz his gf dun allow him to.. lk DUH! i mean.. not lk he's doin anyting bad or wat.. n if her main concern is that dance will affect his studies.. come on.. it's e HOLS! pple dun study during hols!!! i c no issue AT ALL!!!!!!! i find that e prob to e whole situation is that mel is not strong on his stand at all.. he SAYS.. says onli that he reallirealli wans to join.. but i dun c e fire n hunger in him.. i mean.. if his gf realli loves him.. she shd understan rt? cant he b firm? my god... n he's e coordinator.. he's supposed to help me!! not add to my probS!

den hock.. removed cast on fri.. but might b scheduled 4 an operation.. OPERATION ok! means bye to dance n funka!! wat kind of hosp izzit.. onli inform pple they need to undergo operation lk 1 wk beforehand.. stupid! at least hock realli wans to join.. it's juz whether he can or not..

now e one person that i nv imagine would give me prob is hc.. she juz told me she wans out aft e first prac wif peter.. tink she's intimidated by him.. plus his talk abt all e pracs n stuff kind of scared her.. she wasnt prep to put in that amt of effort into dance.. but how.. we NEED her.. every1 of e 6 now in e team is NEEDED! we cant do without any1.. if not e team will juz fall apart..

realli feel that we might haf a chance tis yr.. esp since nus is not joining accordin to peter.. n there's semis tis yr.. so at least muz get there.. if onli we can get e team tog.. we can realli train hard n b strong! im so super vexed over tis that nothin seems to cheer me up.. even mahjong ydae i was lk losin all e way till lk beifeng den won back.. i mean i usually juz win all e way.. tink my mood affected me badly :( had tennis training ydae too... which was disastrous lar.. 4 me.. totally suck at it BOO!

arrrrrrrrr! i realli cant tk it.. breaking down.. v soon...

did nothin todae.. absolutely nothin worth bloggin abt.. woke up at 230 den aft lunch slept till 530.. hahas.. den parents fetched me to dinner n now im home.. nothin but eatin n slping todae.. but im sad now.. coz dear's not by my side :(

ydae was great.. went to hall to surprise dear aft his paper.. hee.. i love to appear when he least expects me :) anw.. den we went sim lim to look 4 a new keyboard 4 him.. but couldnt settle on any.. den went phin's near bugis... had e glutton grill.. being such gluttons we r.. anw.. e portion looked realli small at first.. but in e end we struggled to finish.. hahas.. was a happy meal.. den went clarke quay to meet to rest to chill.. wanted to go forbidden city but no space.. went china one.. no space too.. but e deco inside is realli cool.. n found out that e one of e bands playin there is fr hall3.. cool.. we ended up at brewerkz.. their beer is realli nice n special.. i mean.. obv since they are home brewed.. but it's realli unlike e usual beer which i dun lk.. hahas.. they have some fruity flavours too.. but tink e nicest is golden ale.. anw.. one of e waitress made e nite much more interestin.. hahas.. n she treated us to one pint of beer.. n she even asked us to go there to work.. hahas.. mayb other hols lar.. but e pay seems pretty gd.. or shd i say e tips r realli gd.. ahahas.. she said tips r more than their basic pay wow..

hmm.. no plans tml.. if it's a wkday i might go bladin.. but it's sundae.. ecp sure damn crowded.. hmm.. pack my rm? i wish i could.. i juz cant get myself to start.. anw.. they say movin hall most prob will b postpone 4 lk 2 wks.. haiis.. wanted to get over wif it soon den can conc on funka.. but watever lar.. not lk we can haf any say in tis..

exams r O-V-E-R!

not that im realli over e moon.. coz there's always lotsa stuff to do though it's e hols :( but shall juz enjoy myself while i can..

ydae was one of e most tiring day in my life.. couldnt rem e last time i used up so much of my energy.. first.. i woke up at 6am.. e first time in a longlong time.. to get ready to go botanic gardens.. luckily i got e car coz parents still in penang.. anw drove to pick up cuicui b4 goin over.. nearly got lost but luckily we managed to find our way in e end.. didnt expect bringing 20 p3 kids on a trail would b this tiring.. i realli almost dieded! i was screaming e whole 2hrs!! it's hard earned money man i tell u.. e claz i got was realli naughty.. n it's so difficult to even juz do a headcount.. n i tot children were cute..

lunch was great.. thai express.. drank so much water there.. duno it's e screaming or e green curry.. hahas.. but e trail realli left me feeling damn dehydrated! den on to hong's hse to play mahjong.. YAY.. been so long since i touched those tiles man.. n hengheng won nearly 20bucks :) haiis.. but suaysuay tiao 'sumon' at her hse coz i onli put 1 parkin coupon.. hahs.. so eventually wat i won wasnt enuff to cover e cost BOO! den on to 85 4 dinner.. hahas.. e usual ba chou mee.. yum.. but was realli drained.. coz started e day so earli

todae was more of a slackin day.. didnt do much except got a haircut near clarke quay.. my mum signed tis package ting n she wans to use it up.. i realli liked my new haircut.. until she decided to chop off some more fringe.. now i haf sum short ones.. which i dun quite like.. but overall.. alrt lar.. tink i look fresher! b4 that my hair was in lk total mess!

haven seen dear 4 lk 3 days :( i miss him..

been gettin so much headaches recently.. slping too long.. eatin at irregular timings.. watchin too much video clips.. somehow or other my head will ache.. makes studyin lk 10times harder than it already is :( in e end i'll juz go to slp.. hahas..

2 more days to e end of exams!
yahoooo~!!! cant wait :) i haf 10 days till most pple finish exams includin deardear..
aft that all e work n shit will come.. so 10 days is all i have to enjoy myself!
plus tink of tings that i wana do b4 my big 2 0 arrives :) tings that TEENagers do..
gotta start planning already..

im realli glad u rem :) somehow my tiny brain juz cant function as well as urs.. it's not that it means nothin to me.. it realli does! study hard k my dear!

actualli below is juz a load of crap.. it's realli nothin significant or impt or interesting.. so dun bother to read.. but i dun wan to delete it coz i spent lk 15 min typing it so... yea.. bte.. i wrote tis para aft i wrote e following :)

everyting has been goin WRONGWRONGWRONG todae.. hahas.. ever since mel walked wif us to e bus stop.. he's realli suay.. n he made us suay! hahas.. first ting.. while walkin past hall7 to e bustop we saw 1 bus zoom past.. but since it's e peak hr we tot e nxt bus would come along pretty fast.. in e end we waited 4 lk 15 4 a stupid 179.. den my farecard had no money! n i put in $1 which e bus driver insisted i put in 10cents more.. so geigao.. not lk e money go to him.. anw.. den we boarded e mrt.. gd ting we managed to catch it n got seats.. den took to outram to change to NEL.. we went up e wrong escalator which we eventually had to climb down by stairs n walk even further n we juz missed our NEL train by lk 1milllisecond! we were already so late! den we had to wait 4 e nxt train n when we finally reached clarke quay we had to lk run n walk realli fast.. in heels! n juz as we were abt to cross e road.. e light turned red.. juz went we decided to dash across ok.. den we waited.. again.. n we finally reached our destination 4 our job briefing.. n gues wat.. yeah.. we waited AGAIN! 4 lk 1 damn hr.. doin nothin.. they juz threw us a form to fill n didnt tell us lk anyting.. den finally went 4 e briefin 4 lk 45min which was totally irrelavent coz we were doin another venue den we had to stay another extra lk 15min 4 our briefing.. that wasnt e end of all e bad tings that happpend.. we randomly went to tis fish place 4 dinner.. tink it's called e fisherman's wharf if im not wrong.. anw.. we chose tis super terrible seat.. hahas.. it was direvtly facing e toilet.. n cuicui had e toilet bowl staring at her when she was eating! hahhas.. gd ting i was back facing it.. den we took a train back.. n yes.. it was super packed n we had to stand e whole journey :( when we reached boonlay gerald offerd to come fetch us back.. but we didnt wan to trouble him.. another bad mistake! hahas.. in e end we took e bus n e air con was lk blowing in our faces.. n i couldnt close it coz i was jammed! now im back in my rm.. it's time to go back to by books.. :(

haiis.. no hope of pullin up my proj grades wif e papers for 213 liaos.. sucks.. had super bad time management :( wonder if i became slower.. i usually dun haf time management prob leh.. haiis.. e past 2 papers ive been struggling.. mayb it's under e influence of freddie.. hhaas.. jokin.. but he so poor ting.. he dropped his template that we spent so much time n effort cutting out.. so that we can juz trace e shapes in our flowcharts fr e template.. sad case..

hahas.. but on a happy note.. our 201 proj got A! im so surprised! yay! hahs.. n my claz participation got B.. wows! given that i missed lk so manymany lessons i still got a B.. im realli v glad n relieved.. at least there's a chance of gettin better grade 4 201.. if i dun screw up my paper..

shall party e rest of today! yay! n e new 9oclock show abt dance lk rather sucky leh.. e acting sux lar.. so far haven got to c them dance.. juz watched 1 episode ydae.. ohh.. n actualli i wrote a post abt "so u tink u can dance" but it couldnt post n was gone.. anw.. it's tis v nice show similar to american idol.. juz that they r searchin 4 dancing talents instead of singers.. its realli cool!

haven been bloggin.. why? coz i simply cant sign in.. at least 4 e past few days.. duno wat's wrong.. they keep redirecting me to sign in again n again.. hahas.. mayb they're tryin to stop me from wasting time on bloggin.. hahas..

3 more papers to go.. once it starts.. everyting juz zooms.. hmm.. 202 was alrt i guess.. but no time to do leh.. haiis.. n there was tis pt that i wrote down on my Q paper to remind myself n i 4got to include in my ans!! *ouch*

i c rainbows in front of me.. hahas.. my notes n books r all beautifully tagged wif e colourful tags.. hahas.. 3 out of 4 of my papers r open bk tis sem.. so taggin is realli impt.. saved me lotsa flippin time.. but taggin itself took me quite some time already hahas..

making plans 4 hols liaos.. let's c wat i haf lined up...

1. funka trainings - hopefully can get peter again.. realli hope to work wif him again.. can totally predict tis is goin to suck up most of my hols
2. SP rehersals - duno wat's e schedule lk yet.. but totally expecting lotsa pracs.. hope my role is small though
3. tennis trainings - im in my hall's tennis team though i noe nuts abt tennis.. hahas.. pretty interested in learning but might not even hav time for trainings.. scared all my commitments clash :(
4. road trip to msia wif fam - dun tink i'll get to go though.. so much other stuff to dobut will c how lar..
5. cele my bdae/meetin up wif pple i haven met up in a REAL long time(kunz/sw!) - hahas.. start bookin me pple.. i haf a v tight schedule!
6. read books - wana read some gd books tis hols.. hopefully can squeeze out some time.. any gd bks to recommend?
7. moving hall - wow.. big proj.. hahas so many tings to pack n clean up n stuff.. pretty excited abt e new dance studio too! n also haf to go shopping 4 new stuff to put in e new rm :) matching bedshts etc. yay!
8. mj dance camp - realli lookin 4ward to it.. but im afraid it'll clash with everyting else den i wont noe wat to do!! haiis.. realli wan to noe e mj pple better.. i wana feel lk part of them!
9. our anniversary* - yay! :) totally lookin 4ward to it
10. work - not that i realli realli wan to work.. but e job jason recommended sounds pretty fun.. but they dun need pple currently.. i need some cash!

lookin at my schedule.. can predict i'll b in hall most of the time.. not that i mind lar.. hahas.. nothin to at home too.. better get back to my bks now BOO!

havin cramps sux! haiis.. but at least it gives me a break fr studyin.. EVERYONE is lk muggin rt here.. it's so scary.. e tut rms r all booked.. pple bringin mattresses to slp over in e rms n stuff.. it's juz unbelievable.. hahas.. been goin to e tut rm to study too.. we're realli lucky to haf found a rm.. n since den.. we've been hogging it.. hahas.. n there's no way we're givin it up.. even brought cushions.. kettles blahblah over there.. e onli prob is that it's damn cold! hahas..

anw.. haf been realli bad tempered lately.. haiis.. juz cant help but get irritated by e slightest tings.. wonder wat's wrong! n still cant find instructor for funka... HOW!?!?!