decided to change my blogskin to mark tis new stage of my life. ive made a resolution to myself: i'll not b consumed by this whole working/adulthood life. i'll still b me! i dun wan to b numb. b fake. suck up to superiors. act enthu towards work. i'll tk time out to enjoy myself no matter how drained i m from work. work is not goin to stop me from having a life. yes! that is if i can help it. haiis :(

going guanzhou tml. hope it'll b a happy trip! i gotta stock up on working wear. hopefully they cater to small pple there. i have sooooo much difficulty finding working clothes that fit n i look gd in. most of e time i juz look lk a kid in her mummy's wear.

just came back from my pre-employment check up. not feeling too gd. dun worry, it's nothin to do with my health. im in gd shape. or at least thats wat e doc said aft i stayed n waited arnd for lk 2hrs. i had a preview of wat my life would b lk at least for e nxt 3 yrs. e check up location was at raffles place n i witnessed e bz lunch hr. not like it's my first time, i mean all e tissue chop seat kind of experience i've had before during my internship. but tis afternoon e same scene had a larger impact on me. im not sure if im up for tis. tis whole working life ting.. im not sure if im suited for it man. am i really up for it? can i survive it? let alone perform at work. it's really making me nervous.

one ting i noe for sure, im so goin to miss sch life. not e studying part though. saw a bunch of uni students having sch camps doing photohunt at e mrt juz now. such beautiful memories. i really wanted to step up to them to tell them to cherish wat they r goin thru now man. saw quite a few dunman high n temasek jc students at bedok just now n i tot to myself, how did i let those yrs slip past so quickly. tsktsk. really feel damn old now. sian. n i was at bedok library (yes i read! coz im really bored w/o my dearieeeeeee) n there was tis guy who came up to me n said that im kinda cute. hahas e first tot that ran thru my mind was 'im too old for tis man'

gosh. tink im sounding lk a 70yr old ah ma. but im really starting to b affected by this whole adulthood, working life shittttttt! stressssssed!!!!!!!!!!

another sleepless nite.. duno wat's wrong with me. ive been waking up at 2, 3 am e past 2 nites to find myself hungry n bored. dearie is enjoying himself in thailand. im glad he decided to go in e end. he didnt wan to go initially coz it's my first wk back in sg n i'll b starting work real soon which means hell :(

seriously, i duno wat working life is goin to bring.. all i noe is that im not looking forward to it. it's goin to b diff fr internships n temp jobs. those days even if im in shit, i noe it'll will b over. soon n i can return to my carefree, slack n nua student life. but tis time round, there is no return. feel pretty uncertain, duno wat to expect. i tink im feeling over-negative abt tis whole situation. but i feel lk my time is running out. i wana make sure i do everyting i wan to do before i start work. as if life ends once i start work. which isn't e case.. right??

i guess i really have to grow up now.

im back! from e US of A!! e past 3mths i really suffered/played/enjoyed myself to e max! met lotsa pple, saw lotsa new tings, did tings i've nv done b4, changed my eating habits, my sleeping patterns, shopped lk mad. all in all it was a gd trip! if onli work wasnt so tough man.

anw i graduated!

aft 3 yrs of hard work (lk real) i finally reached tis stage!!

with my parents! i hope they're proud of me. though my results were realli so-so. nothin to boast abt.. hahas.
with dearieee! thanx for being photog of e day plus bag carrier n buyin me e huge bouquet! i love it!
nbs mates! we all made ittttt!!!!
hall 3 unite!