falling sick. boo! cant afford to fall sick! so many tings to do. projs. meetings. readings. quizzes. tutorials. MAHJONG.

hahas. realli addicted to that shit man. itching to play everyday. even when im sneezing away n half dead. someone save me fr tis man. but got real lucky e other day. combined powers wif dear n we won lk 3 or 4 'mans'. it's been a long time since we won so much. but still some dist fr my personal best. hahas.

dear doesnt wan to stay hall nxt yr coz he wans to move home to b arnd his parents n me. n also to spend more time wif frens that he has neglected all these years in hall. i agree hall does create a barrier between me n my outside of hall frens. i mean most of my life is spent here. kind of cut off fr e world outside. boo! anw grad soon. so scary. cant imagine slogging everyday n getting scoldings fr clients n superiors. arr! still duno wat e path ahead looks lk.

happy bday gal! hope u had fun :)

sch has been.. sian.. boo.. im totally laggin behind everyone! not participatin in claz even within my own grp coz i realli have no idea wat e hell is goin on. gotta realli BUCK UP! been realli tired doin self destructive stuff lk mahjong which i realli haf to cut down alot! shall play no more than twice a wk.

im back in MJ (not mahjong.. modern jazz!) yayayayayyy! realli realli glad i made e decision. but originally planned to join e junior claz coz had frens in there. n as i have experienced, passion for dance is not enuff to push me to go for classes coz im simply toooooo lazy! but now that e studio is at NIE at least it's nearer. hope i can get my lazy ass down every wk. actualli i have to. coz i promised pat in front of lk all e pple. gosh. but im realli glad they welcome me back :) realli means alot to me!

been dancing wif e senior gals fr hall, planning to enter a comp tog. more details later :)

ryan's dad is finally out of hosp. hope he recovers soon! he looks fine though. not too worried. but my granny on e other hand. haiis. so poor ting. realli feel lk cryin everytime i visit her. seems lk she isn't v happy stayin wif my uncle. not that they ill treat her or anyting but i guess they juz arent on v good terms. anw used to spend so much more time wif her when i was lil. learnt my broken teochew fr her too. hope she looks n on e bright side, cheer up n recover sooooon!

bro got accepted in mel U. can tell his heart is there. but it'll b quite a financial burden if he realli goes over. duno wat he's tinkin oso lar. hope he's not doin tis coz of her. boy gal r/s shd nv affect study plans. that's wat i say onli. hahas. cant even go on exchange coz deardear doesnt wan to. boo! but i've decided if i get a chance to go work play. i'll grab it!!! yeps. n den i can finally grad without regrets!

now that im in my final yr, i realize that there's lk a ton of tings i wana do before i grad:
1. go on exchange! experience life outside spore for some time, widen my horizon before i start my boring mundane job.
2. dance! dont tink i'll continue dancin aft i grad so wana make use of all e time left to juz haf fun. n also to b part of a dance concert.
3. go on a volunteering trip to some poor countries to teach or lk build a hse or sumting.
4. go diving, wakeboarding or climbing wif e sch clubs.
5. use up wat ever student privileges i m entitled to
6. mahjong lk there's no tml (hopeful in e last sem when i have onli 1 core left)
7. internship in one of e big 4s to have a glimpse of my future life
8. go on holidayS
9. have a great 21st!
10. spend all my remaining time wif my fam, frens n deardear :)

it's been 3 wks into sch. but im still so slack. cant stand it. i wan to b e student who answers all e ques n actually noe wat other pple n e tutor is toking abt.

anw grandma n ryan's dad both in hosp. such a coincidence. hope they both recover soon :)

hong's bday (pics fr hj's blog) at dunman view. nice condo. just a lil inaccessible.

e theme was pirates so we all turned up in e most piraty clothes we could dig fr our closets. i tink w/o e pirate hats we'll all fail lor. e red arm bands wif e pic of a skull head were door gifts.

us with her pirate ship cake. it costs a whopping $170. but its damn cute. even had a shark n a stingray. hahas. how cute is that.

n rt now she shd b enjoying herself touring venice. lucky gal! on exchange at netherlands for tis sem.

we'll miss u. tk care!

boring fri nite in hall. so i decided to upload pics fr OC :) here goes!

day 2 of camp. look at e pathetic no. of freshies. esp gals! there r 3 senior gals in tis btw. our grp was ZULU. n on e flag is a pig=ZU on e rd=LU. so lame!

my dear subcommers who helped come up wif e games. thank u so much! treat coming up :)

at water carnival.

seniors guys. who had fun entertaining themselves. they were lk a bunch of freshies playin. tsktsk.

my dear cui cuis. cant imagine sch w/o tis 2 lovely nbs cum hallmates of mine.

syncro swimming by e freshies. they broke e tradition of bagging e title. we managed to win e past 2 yrs. anw e grp that won had all guys n they took off their pants. so yep no complains fr me :)

initiation nite. btw i find e topless guy in black shorts real cute. too bad he came e later part of e camp if not i sure norminte him for pageant!

dragon boating during amazing race. i missed that :( didnt do during seniors camp coz i was on PA.

all in all it was a gd camp. or shd i say GREAT camp. i dun care wat other pple tink or say. i tink we did wat a camp was supposed to do - bond e freshies n give them a gd time. e rest is up to them. still haven got e pics for SP nite n monster hunt. might post again later.

must thank e GLs for doing such a fantastic job keeping everyone high n v well taken care of. xin ku le!

e BIGGEST thanks goes to my dear who tolerated my crap during camp which is e result of all e stress of organising. thanks for keeping me going and for just stayin by me :) love ya!

Hi im back!

sch sux! really! from a final year pt of view. im in my FINAL year! yes.. last yr of fun n freedom before i step into e cruel working world :( all my mods tis sem look real tough. can foresee i'll have probs coping. n i duno y they dun let me tk e GEs i wan! not that i realli wan to tk it. so stupid! isn't it supposed to b unrestricted electives? so y do they restrict my choice!!!


i am so going to miss tis 2 gals man. they r both flying away!!! y m i stuck here :( anw do tk care of urselves gals!

camp's finally over! 5 & a half days of non-stop cheering, briefings, de-briefings, set ups, clear ups, cock ups n stuff. n it's all over! one yr of blood n sweat into planning n all, didnt regret a single moment of it. i wouldnt say that it turned out e best that it could have been. but on our part, we have given it all. i tink e major obstacle we faced this camp was e turn out for e camp. the ratio of guys to gals on e first day was lk 4:1. lk if im a guy i definitely will not go e 2nd day. come on. it's ma chiam another army camp. but as e camp progressed more n more pple joined. n it turned out to b slightly more balanced. but many events were affected by e guy gal ratio with my event being e most badly hit. my major event was SP nite where we had to pair a guy to a gal. in e end we had to activate ALL of e senior gals except me n my other head programmer, e co-chair n e chief GLs n GLs. every other female had to b in. i realli wana thank all e senior gals for being so cooperative n understanding. im n truely v grateful if not e event could not have been carried out.

had many disagreements with dear throughout e camp. many tings that we do not c eye to eye to. realli not used to tis kind of a situation. usually we always agree on tings but throughout e camp i felt that he was tryin to contridict me in every situation. mayb coz im under too much stress during e camp. watever. nothin big came out of that lar.

n so, e orientation camp has come to a close. sch awaits us (dreads!) oh n it's such a coincidence that perry n weilong both stay in e same floor as dear. goin to c them pretty often arnd hall. more mahjong kakis too! there were some pretty cute freshie guys too. there's one fr my grp. hahas. but gals tis yr r so lucky! so many guys to pick from. hahas.

missed many nursings outings but dont worry, ive been pickin up e news though a lil slower. wish all e new couples happiness :)

end of internship! no more waking up at 7am early in e morn. no more disgusting canteen food. but oso no more abundant net surfing hours n tok cok fellow intern. on e last day i suddenly was given so much work to do. had to struggle to complete it though they insist it's ok but juz lk to leave tings hanging. anw had a half day coz it was their DnD n everyone left hahas. though none in my dept going 4 e DnD. it was a pleasant experience though it could have been more brain teasing. but during my free time surfin e net i oso learnt quite abit. im grateful for everyting :)

seniors camp was really messy. for me lar. plus ah cui wasnt arnd for the initiation games try-outs. pretty stressed when it's our games. tings nv seem to go smoothly. lots of last min changes n situations. tings onli looked better on e last day. can tell that e programmers really put in 101% effort in planning e games. so hopeful there will b lots of 'on' freshies to make e actual camp a SUCCESS! got lotsa tings to do for our own games. jiayou!

msia trip was realli wonderful. all coz of my deardear. realli glad that i could spend some time with my parents. aft stayin in hall ive been neglecting them. feel bad sumtimes. muz remind myself to make it up to them whenever possible :) anw went KL genting n malacca. tink i liked malacca e most. a simple town. realli love e hotel we stayed in. no complains abt e trips. with such lovely company, wat more can i ask for. i didnt even buy a single ting on e trip. unbelievable. tink aft thailand, everyting isnt worth buying hahas.

in e car. start of e trip.

at e night market in KL.

on e way to genting we detoured to tis beautiful resort.

tis is e resort. realli pretty n isolated.

tis is another part of e resort. n that's my parents.

me and my deardear!

so cute my dear!

at e hotel in malacca.

i love my parents! thanx 4 e trip :)

- my dear & i -

Thanx dear! you totally made my day! love u to bits!!

i have tis innate disability to stay angry for long. somehow anger just evades me. unwillingly! sometimes i really wan to stay angry at someone but i just cant. it realli fustrates me you noe. whenever i feel the need to vent my anger back on whoever, there will b tis small voice in my head saying 'perhaps he/she had a bad day' ' there's no pt arguing' 'im sure he/she has a valid reason for tis behavior' and most of the time 'it doesnt matter, if he/she feels better tis way, let it be'. people arnd me may misunderstand and tink im v good tempered and all. but the truth is. i get angry. it's juz that it doesnt last long. i guess only my family has seen the worst of my temper.

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seriously gotta catch back some winks i lost over all the soccer matches, mahjong sessions, dance pracs, OC games try outs and bday present making over the past wk. my pimple is taking extra long to recover. muz b e lack of slp. yikes.

looking forward to end of internship which translates to OC seniors camp (worried abt my games) n msia trip wif parents n dear (yay! sponsored trip!). tis internship does not give me a true n accurate peek into corporate life. at least i hope not. this is an ideal place for working mums who haf to cook meals for their husbands n kids n do hsework aft office hrs. coz basically it is damn slack here. there's no one in charge of tis place n it is realli havoc as in pple come in late go off earli surf net chit chat lk no body's business. i wan my working life to be fulfilling, fun and challenging. i wan my brain cells to be squeezed and most imptly i wan to dress up to go to work, meet clients n learn new tings!

find my blog v plain n boring with all text n no pics. been too lazy to upload u see. anw tis is a pic fr elaine's wedding. my dear so handsome that nite! rt? pls ignore my hair all messed up at e end of e nite. cant believe she's been married 4 2mths now.

went 4 3 parties last nite.

ah ma's bday - it was juz a small gathering at my uncle's hse. e usual few relatives lar. it was pretty last min coz my cousin (e eldest male grandson) has to leave 4 US lk nxt wk so my grandma wants to cele while he's still here. thanx dear for gettin e prez last min. anw if not for tis i would b in msia wif my parents n dear. e trip is now postponed till aft my PA.

yujia's bday - it was held at tropica. realli nice pool they have. all n all v happy to see everyone fr my jc claz. esp those that i haven seen in a longlong time. lk fel. n so qiao her bf is dear's ocs fren. hahas. n e 2 of them r lk kids when they're tog. whole day duno laffing at wat. n rx xiaobai n all. hope u had a blast gal!

fen's bday - had some trouble finding e place. didnt wan to drive at first but sf said she'll b joining us den i tot cant sqeeuze in a cab. i hate driving when im a rush. esp when there's a RED at every traffic light. i HATE it! lk FFFFF! boo! n although i may appear pissed at u. i m not. ok? sorry if i raised my voice. anw bday gal v pretty ydae. n most pple came in e theme - stripes n dots. loved e purple n white balloons. hope u lk ur present gal :)

find that our r/s is kind of in e low. tis PA, his ICT n all realli built some walls btw us. hopefully once tis PA is over tings will pick up lar. mayb it's juz me. i duno. bored wif my life. PA is no fun. i rather do more work. lk real work n not juz sit arnd surf net. watch clips on youtube. read jokes on some weird sites. haiis.

orientation coming up but our games n all still not settled. hope tis coming wkend's try out will b successful. feel that me n ah cui r e only pple doing our games. as long as e freshies have fun n appreciate our planning it'll b worth it. dance-wise quite screwed too. hc wont b dancing. so left 3 gals n 4 guys. but everyting not settled yet. music. cheoro. costumes. plus we haf no time 4 pracs with me doin PA n so many of them not staying hall.

lookin forward to mahjong tml! win some moneyy!! realli broke fr all e bdays hahas. gotta make back some. work tml. BOO!

finished another series called 'prison break'. it's abt tis guy getting himself thrown into jail so that he can save his innocent bro from being executed by breaking out. i tink it's done by the makers of desperate hsewifes. fantastic show man. extremely thrilling. i can feel e adrenaline rush every time. n it juz makes me wan to continue watching. i muz admit it's more of a guy show though. but e storyline n e way e characters are built. so damn ingenius! but e ending was so dissapointing! i noe they r trying to leave it open ended for season 2. but come on. aft leading me on 4 so long they just tk e bait away. ARGH! guess i have no choice but to wait 4 e sequel. they better be quick though.

went 4 wanting's 21st on sat at civil service club. it's a pretty nice place with a great view of e sea. also e atmosphere was great with music fr e bar. anw e bdae gal was too busy to entertain us so me von n sf had a great time catching up. didnt realize we did soooo many stupid tings back den in JC. n i always tot i had a boring JC life. kind of miss these gals man. we had all these stupid nicknames 4 each other. sf was 'leader' (though only von calls her that. hahas. it's juz too stupid i cant get it out of my mouth). n von was 'dadu' coz she's always complaining abt her tummy. com on lar none of us fall under e catogory fat or anywhere near there. n as 4 me. they call me 'xiao tou' hahas coz of my small head. n stupid fel didnt come! lookin forward to e mahjong session next wk.

haii. life so painful without deardear. quick come back from e forest!

my life is getting so routine.
7am-wake up. wash up. go to work.
10am-have breakfast in office.
12pm-lunch!!!
630-dinner.
12pm-ZZZzzzzzz~
BORING! now past 12 i'll get real sleepy. n see. it's early in e morn 9am on a sat n im awake when i have nothin on till lunch. yikessss! my life is controlled by my meal times too. if i dun eat at those timings i get really hungry n upset. that's workin life for me. gotta know e perm staff a lil more at e farewell lunch 4 michelle n sean. lunch in future will b juz me n raymond. boo. n we'll prob haf to shift to their tables which is right at e finance dept which means i cant slack anymore! but i always have nothin to do. help!

some of e more eventful happenings e past 2 wks will include meetin perry. i bet he wont forget that fateful day 4 some time too. hahas. we went into e century sq carpark n he scratched his car. pretty badly. n it was e top of his car that kena. feel quite bad abt it man. haf to admit that we're kinda at fault for not noticin e height limit. but den again. i was place in such a dark place. WHO WOULD HAVE NOTICED?!?!! n e security guard keep gesturing us in. anw. e nite turn out fine lar. i realli salute him man. aft e incident he could still haf dinner n movie. my treat of coz. anw. no more driving 4 him e nxt time we meet up.

just finished watching '1 litres of tears'.. it's a show abt tis gal who contracted tis disease with a damn complicated name. anw in essense, she'll slowly lose her ability to walk, write, talk n even swallow. it's a realli sad show. n it's a real story. she's realli strong. i cried sooo much watchin e show. juz cry non-stop fr e start to e end of each episode till my eyes were dry n red every nite. fr e show realli learnt how impt fam is to us in times of need lk tis. also, we realli need to treasure e many many small tings in life. her diary has been published in japan n it's a bestseller. it's realli encouraging n touching to c how a young gal is able to deal with her illness n cont to live her life to e fullest.

ive been workin for a mth now. which marks my 1 mth separation fr deardear. i mean physically of coz. though ive been stayin over every wkend, i juz feel that we dont spend enuff time tog. realli havin a hard time adapting to life w/o my deardear with me 24hrs a day. feel so lost at times. n i can realli feel e gap btw us, making us drift apart. i dont lk that feeling. i noe dear always say 'absence makes e heart grow fonder' but it juz doesnt work 4 me! i tink im becomin realli possessive. or shd i say im possessed!

anw, we juz painted his rm in tis beautiful shade of chalk beige. im so amazed n impressed by e paint technology now. not onli is e paint odourless ( it realli is!!), it supposedly is able to keep insects away n all. hahas. it's a all in one paint. n e most impressive part is the paint was mixed on e spot. there's tis machine where u can select e colour u desire on e comp den u place a tin of white paint in e machine n it will add in e required colours. aft that u haf to cap e tin n place it in a mixer machine were it will shake e tin till e paint is mixed well n TADA! u get e colour u wan. how magical! hahas. n ingenius! tis way e shop dun haf to stock up on all kinds of colours.

my heart feels so heavy now. :(

e wk came n pass.. again.. had a bz wk.. let's see..

mon: went for norman's bday surprise. at HK cafe marina square (dun go there!) hahas. it wouldnt have happened w/o his gf - mr shawn ho! hahas. he's realli a great gf! (every1 agrees) he got all e present (yes. 6 items all tog). he wrapped all of them spending a whole aft on it. n he got lk almost 18 of us to come. i would say it's a success coz e bday boy was realli caught off guard. it's realli heartwarming to c e extend frens will go to make u happy.

tues: met deardear! (i sosooooo miss him!!!!!) n e rest of e hall gang to watch davinci code. did i mention im workin in davinci building? hahas. anw. tink e movie was too fast paced. if u didnt read e bk. u'll b lost lk by e 30th min. hahas. ohh. n noe wat robin got 4 charlotte for her 20th bdae? i cant believe him man! hahas.

wed: stay home nite. gotta watch tv. yay!

thurs: went to brewerkz! love that place! anw we went to cele tina's bdae. it's amazing how we fostered our friendship. hahas. n it's realli great to haf a fren who's e supervisor there. hahas. we got a free treat! goin out wif her again nxt tues.

fri: went out wif e gals. to phin's steakhse. every1's workin now. either internship or temp job. hahas it was fun bitchin abt work n complaining abt how e comps slave drive us. poor lil interns. n cant believe miss ju. she actualli wore slippers to work! haiyoh!

aft that went back hall to find my deardear! went arnd to give out flyers. actualli i got e job for OC but sinyee they all not interested so bobian we did ourselves lor. some extra moeny :) but spending lk siao these days. n it's all coz of bdays! 21st bdays r realli xiong. can feel e huge hole in my pocket man.

sat: went to e club with deardear. but e time we spent tanning was less than e amt of time we took to apply e sun tanning oil! hahas. waste of our efforts :( but went 4 a nice meal at e club. den at nite met up wif regina. she's realli a crazy gal. glad that deardear n her can still remain so close despite all their bz lifes n all.

shd b goin food fair with my parents later on. den work again tml. boo!