just finished watching '1 litres of tears'.. it's a show abt tis gal who contracted tis disease with a damn complicated name. anw in essense, she'll slowly lose her ability to walk, write, talk n even swallow. it's a realli sad show. n it's a real story. she's realli strong. i cried sooo much watchin e show. juz cry non-stop fr e start to e end of each episode till my eyes were dry n red every nite. fr e show realli learnt how impt fam is to us in times of need lk tis. also, we realli need to treasure e many many small tings in life. her diary has been published in japan n it's a bestseller. it's realli encouraging n touching to c how a young gal is able to deal with her illness n cont to live her life to e fullest.

ive been workin for a mth now. which marks my 1 mth separation fr deardear. i mean physically of coz. though ive been stayin over every wkend, i juz feel that we dont spend enuff time tog. realli havin a hard time adapting to life w/o my deardear with me 24hrs a day. feel so lost at times. n i can realli feel e gap btw us, making us drift apart. i dont lk that feeling. i noe dear always say 'absence makes e heart grow fonder' but it juz doesnt work 4 me! i tink im becomin realli possessive. or shd i say im possessed!

anw, we juz painted his rm in tis beautiful shade of chalk beige. im so amazed n impressed by e paint technology now. not onli is e paint odourless ( it realli is!!), it supposedly is able to keep insects away n all. hahas. it's a all in one paint. n e most impressive part is the paint was mixed on e spot. there's tis machine where u can select e colour u desire on e comp den u place a tin of white paint in e machine n it will add in e required colours. aft that u haf to cap e tin n place it in a mixer machine were it will shake e tin till e paint is mixed well n TADA! u get e colour u wan. how magical! hahas. n ingenius! tis way e shop dun haf to stock up on all kinds of colours.

my heart feels so heavy now. :(