been feelin damn low these days.. all coz of funka.. now that we got e instructor.. e funds.. e most impt ting is lacking.. people!! haiis.. mel.. den hock.. n now hweechin!! first mel say he cant join coz his gf dun allow him to.. lk DUH! i mean.. not lk he's doin anyting bad or wat.. n if her main concern is that dance will affect his studies.. come on.. it's e HOLS! pple dun study during hols!!! i c no issue AT ALL!!!!!!! i find that e prob to e whole situation is that mel is not strong on his stand at all.. he SAYS.. says onli that he reallirealli wans to join.. but i dun c e fire n hunger in him.. i mean.. if his gf realli loves him.. she shd understan rt? cant he b firm? my god... n he's e coordinator.. he's supposed to help me!! not add to my probS!

den hock.. removed cast on fri.. but might b scheduled 4 an operation.. OPERATION ok! means bye to dance n funka!! wat kind of hosp izzit.. onli inform pple they need to undergo operation lk 1 wk beforehand.. stupid! at least hock realli wans to join.. it's juz whether he can or not..

now e one person that i nv imagine would give me prob is hc.. she juz told me she wans out aft e first prac wif peter.. tink she's intimidated by him.. plus his talk abt all e pracs n stuff kind of scared her.. she wasnt prep to put in that amt of effort into dance.. but how.. we NEED her.. every1 of e 6 now in e team is NEEDED! we cant do without any1.. if not e team will juz fall apart..

realli feel that we might haf a chance tis yr.. esp since nus is not joining accordin to peter.. n there's semis tis yr.. so at least muz get there.. if onli we can get e team tog.. we can realli train hard n b strong! im so super vexed over tis that nothin seems to cheer me up.. even mahjong ydae i was lk losin all e way till lk beifeng den won back.. i mean i usually juz win all e way.. tink my mood affected me badly :( had tennis training ydae too... which was disastrous lar.. 4 me.. totally suck at it BOO!

arrrrrrrrr! i realli cant tk it.. breaking down.. v soon...