just came back from my pre-employment check up. not feeling too gd. dun worry, it's nothin to do with my health. im in gd shape. or at least thats wat e doc said aft i stayed n waited arnd for lk 2hrs. i had a preview of wat my life would b lk at least for e nxt 3 yrs. e check up location was at raffles place n i witnessed e bz lunch hr. not like it's my first time, i mean all e tissue chop seat kind of experience i've had before during my internship. but tis afternoon e same scene had a larger impact on me. im not sure if im up for tis. tis whole working life ting.. im not sure if im suited for it man. am i really up for it? can i survive it? let alone perform at work. it's really making me nervous.

one ting i noe for sure, im so goin to miss sch life. not e studying part though. saw a bunch of uni students having sch camps doing photohunt at e mrt juz now. such beautiful memories. i really wanted to step up to them to tell them to cherish wat they r goin thru now man. saw quite a few dunman high n temasek jc students at bedok just now n i tot to myself, how did i let those yrs slip past so quickly. tsktsk. really feel damn old now. sian. n i was at bedok library (yes i read! coz im really bored w/o my dearieeeeeee) n there was tis guy who came up to me n said that im kinda cute. hahas e first tot that ran thru my mind was 'im too old for tis man'

gosh. tink im sounding lk a 70yr old ah ma. but im really starting to b affected by this whole adulthood, working life shittttttt! stressssssed!!!!!!!!!!